A Strange Feeling

Did that just happen? Am I really going to do this? Do I have to do this? Am I really going to be this? Why me? Is there another way? Do I have to die? All this for people I don't even know? When will… How will… Why will this happen? What will people think of me… Will I be hated? Will I have enemies? Do I have to do it this way? Will they be grateful? Will I still be normal? What if people don’t accept me… What if I don’t fit in anymore? Can’t I go back to being a carpenter again? No I suppose not… Will I really save people? If I can save others, I will do what I have to do… Is that why I was always different? All those prophecies, that's why I read them differently, I finally understand them now, but now what?…